Christian in College

Hi people! I know I’ve been slightly absentee lately, and I apologize humbly. A lot has been going on, with classes and friends! Through these last couple weeks I’ve learned something that I should have already known, and I thought I did know it. I didn’t really though. About two weeks ago my then boyfriend and I were having issues, and we broke up. We had to break up though, because we both love God way more than we love each other. After we broke up, (the dorms have curfews, so we were sitting outside) I sat there for a good 45 minutes and just cried. He sat next to me and held me. It was one of the hardest things I’ve had to go through, maybe ever. My heart hurts, horribly. It hurts to know we can’t be together, when I have such feelings for him. But later on, as I was crying and talking to my friend on the phone, something he told me just sunk in.
“Trust God to get you through this.”

Everyday, sometimes several times a day, I ask God to strengthen me and to change my feelings for my ex, from love to friendship. I also ask God to fill the part of my heart that once belonged to the ex, with Himself, with Jesus. I’m not going to lie, it’s a constant struggle. It is very, very hard. But God is changing my heart right now, and that takes time. Rome wasn’t built in a day. I trust that God will help me and sooner or later my perfect match will come, and we will live happily ever after. Until then I trust that God is always with me. God loves us and the Bible says in Proverbs 3:5-6:

“Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths.”

God will straighten your path, but you have to ask Him first. He is always a gentleman and won’t help you unless you ask.

Are you really living?

Faithfully listening to God,
Alex